|| -------- -- -----  A E R I E   O B L I V I A N A . singular book of text wandertainment by Frank Edward Nora ------------------- ----------- SUPERIOR CLASSIC--VESTIBULE FOURTEEN (396-425) <-------  ||  Superior  ||  Superior Classic  ||  -------> (Cup SUsc014, Created v1 (4/27/99), Copyright 1999) = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = SUPERIOR 396 Pony tail new brunswick. Mr. Toad, come on. Parking Lot World, I wanna talk about my desire for you. Yeah, life is a sequence. Science, let me tellya, look at a halftone with a magnifier and all you see is dots. Nothing. Playing computer keyboard. People romanticize freehand and typewriter writing. Too little unbelief, where is society up to. SUPERIOR 397 Need to refine. Life is. Buildings take an awful lot of effort to construct. English language, best ever, gets stronger the more foreign words it sucks in. Like me? Yeah e. SUPERIOR 398 Yeah be. Hmm, could be a new retro-hippie catchphrase. Mindy, Mindy, Mindy, Mindy. SUPERIOR 399 I have jaulo to porta. Waiting for the next thing to happen, we pretend colorful fictionals. Autumn leaf, red and dead, have you a thought in your head? What of me is steel-like? The dove, ancient idiot, the dove. SUPERIOR 400 Slow overpass, time of thinker, the yeseholution of the self. Done hinterland, I was overland, and the newspapers are losing interest. A jug of something... Any today does explode because Susan 594-011. SUPERIOR 401 Meantime. Century gang. Harsh y'know. Madness is a luxury you can ill afford, where is that? Resplendent blender--the of meaning. Maybe a housewifet--don't take away her feminism, mind poison. Chances are, in a literary sense, her focus on the blender chaos life beyond her control. What I know about awesome. This was heavily edited. SUPERIOR 402 Thor panther clothing, your feminine side with a baseball bat and a bottle of whiskey. When the bra strap goes loose, you know you're into the tit experience. Eye the clock at 2 PM, hours to go before you go home. You need a 2 PM where you're free as a psycho, causing trouble in amazing places. SUPERIOR 403 I have to youward, I am bashful but persistent. No smoking a cold walk yelling aimlessly at an empty Revolutionary War park town. Yeah, an old fence. Yeah, pretending to be just you, chess and game, theme park crapola takes up 19% of your brain. Toofar, a place for mystery and meeting sex partners. SUPERIOR 404 People matter. I have long hair, it's for my image. A massive intellect makes for tough emotional development. Think of what you can build--build it. SUPERIOR 405 The feelings are delightful here. There's a fire burning between us. Love and lust and everything nice. Here, there is uncertainty. The race to the first kiss, in constant euphoric pain. The effort, if I don't make it I'll never forgive myself. The effort, if I fail at least I'll know I tried. No. This one I play to win. SUPERIOR 406 Rave Janssen, cutest little movie star, just 19, here in my bed. It's like S&M, the eroticism of her being so much better than me--rich, famous, beloved--and who am I? It turns me on. Of course, I dream of making it to the top like her. The dreams themselves are pleasurable to run through my mind. I realize I may as well derive as much pleasure from these visions as possible, since my chances of making it are slim. She's on top. SUPERIOR 407 We think of places, but they're nothing without you there. Yeah, still in time, all of 'em exist. Yup. Time travel and how small you are. Every moment there's a whole world of space. What can they hope to experience? But it's wrong. Consider repetition. Actions have no reactions. The axe of us gone. SUPERIOR 408 This one I play to lose. My heart was wacky, I was just this funny one to her. Any fire there may have been was just in me. The cement slab thought--there will be no first kiss. No more uncertainty--she'll never be my girlfriend. The feelings are ambiguous here. I tried. No euphoria, not painful. SUPERIOR 409 I am a formula made of ace. That tingling sensation, that broad smile of a morning panorama. Air pressure confusion, you're at a mall far away, phones aren't working right, and you have money. Getting away in a night of flurries, never to return, what the humanity you seek is beyond you. And I cannot help it. SUPERIOR 410 Prelude to the informative day. Find. Some of the stars, might be her body when she was 23. I love the feeling of being really tired. I am marvelous--something precious in the display case, seems too valuable for the security level here. So I'm in this hotel. Funny, I can make one call and be having sex with two women all night long. Good women. Not whores. Friends. Part of this whole tapestry of power. But my hand isn't moving. My eyes are all over the phone, but my hand can't obey me. Ironic, what are my concerns? SUPERIOR 411 Let me know. Yeah, I wrote a lot more of this, but it got destroyed as the computer crashed. Erections on transit, writing erotica. Will any of them call me? Have no time for them. Snowfall is unwelcome. Again. Whatever. Didn't lose much. SUPERIOR 412 Nose. Airsh Niobrahms. Metropark, Breasts. Oh! Just, can I write? Not feeling good. 412, wow. Just remember the inner peace. Yeah? Lust is candy. I don't want the abandoned playground. Or do I? Inner peace, emotionlessness. No. It's about keeping my emotions under control. SUPERIOR 413 Dome owe bitch joint Sally queer underground box xaw, Gail always does licking Victoria says evil does zoom. SUPERIOR 414 Two of tools. I have to say I am calm. Rinse is preydive. Bluvven. Blunventem... preyjive. We spink jiv for us. You what you write. It was tising (album name) panucking. SUPERIOR 415 Winter telling of my self. X. Solitary at mall, browsing to burn off energy. Cry about the Internet. Bald cuckold. Xmas everywhere--call me unmoved. Seeking innocence, but confused as to where childhood and society mesh. Bench and do origami--the best path often has aimless loserness passages. Mall of America--one day and it's all over my mind. Princeton--a chilly morning, did I call Kerri? SUPERIOR 416 Getting there side. Speckle, find the lost coffee shop owned by Judy. Cry for help--yours and friends, lost and alone, bewildered by dating. Self, I have to make myself more attractive. A good sort of pain, like after a workout. My old apartment, the walk to the train station, wishing it to end, now it has a magical edge. I don't know. SUPERIOR 417 To talk of craft shops. Friends go to bars, video games and masturbation. I am hiding. Understanding people, as it pains me to discover. Sexy blond next to me right now. Next to me, physically. Far from me, situationally. How I am running my life. Early December '95. Moving in a new direction. If I am true to anything, I must remain true to my ambitions. That last sentence, I feel like I might cry--it's my ambitions that mean the most to me, that I cherish, that I must accomplish. Succeeding in my ambitions is worth severe loserdom, no sex, no social life, whatever. SUPERIOR 418 Bad Macanudo walk to 14th street through the gay area. Scary. Howard Stern on Jay Leno last night--amazing. Played Boggle all day at work, lost a lot. Drinking water, taking vitamin and herb pills. Wore the sweater-like thing inside-out. Talked while eating bread, must have seemed like a slob to June. Honesty... driving down the road in the rain, alone is an experience--builds character, I am destroying myself in order to phoenix myself what is that. Eggs by the side of the road at night. SUPERIOR 419 The blonde plays with her hair. I want a girl. Ha ha--I could get one, but I'd have to work for it. Tame talk. I know what I have to go do. Obliviana. My Core Endeavor. Once called Nomadi. Who am I. Knowing it. It's your fn. SUPERIOR 420 Last for now. Auto repair, the tidal one. Fly flight back to pressent. Being--first minutes at Luxor--tired? Boat thing. Need to edit. Reality. I am better person. Drink up, see you sitting there at the bar, beer in your hand, reading me. Yeah. I see you, whenever you are, see neon, you're waiting for a blonde, never saw her before, you are tough. Butterflies in your stomach, I am on a train in 1995, I want to tell you something that might help you. The guy, brainy, pocked face, glasses, greasy hair, scarf, glasses--do not trust him at all. SUPERIOR 421 The cosmos, rock concert, the waitings and wantings of teens, expectation of a state beyond expectation. The hopes so bright, how adults laugh at them, knowing so well how they'll slowly die. Snickering at hopeless dreams. All teens fall into the same trap, follow the same preset path, no matter how fervently they might believe otherwise. Rebellion as part of growing up, might seem like rebellion, but they all lose it. Except, me, Frank Edward Nora, I have not lost it, and I am 28. SUPERIOR 422 Heat dazzled for beach company date, wonder, what do you have to do. In extraordinary circumstances, not to wind up back in your apartment that night or the next. Being tired, all I want is to be home and in bed, end this torture. But isn't being home in bed, as opposed to everything else you want to do, torture itself? Heat dazzled, and big money torpedoed, foil streamers at convention, $4 Coca-Cola, wandering. Heat. SUPERIOR 423 Talk about hussy. Tired in city. Toy store enlightenment is as immolation in self-awareness. To stab, she forgets to kill, street corner as they paint me. Car. The sex thing. Kissinger. SUPERIOR 424 Back home, dark and cold, college friend memories, stabbing shame, no pony tail today. Go on. Friendly colonial street, weight of the daily childness I can Louisiana and--a bar--I--screwed it all up, it is she--and I cannot return--again and again--the way out, forget about the other girl--but no girls--and... and... and... I am here. What I know about. Please. SUPERIOR 425 Lost. Days away. I want to be all over America. Now I know--duty calls--I cannot cry--it is a metallic Christmas memory here--bird. Commend. Look to you for support. Just... just hanging out, talking. Fear of insanity. Going... going home all the time. Dark days. Who was it? Daddy's apartment, I was proud to think he had girls over. Morning... what is the loss of. -------> ------------------- ----------- -------- -- -----